Showing posts with label Fear. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Fear. Show all posts

Monday, September 20, 2010

Be True to Your Self

"To Thine Own Self Be True."

I'm working on it! That means supporting myself rather than abandoning myself, as is my habit. Supporting myself is scary when I'm busy trying to "play nice", "keep the peace" or otherwise concerned with how I might be perceived. This is the message that has been coming to me repeatedly over the past couple of months.

More and more I have been unable to tell myself a story that is no longer true. I've heard that the body does not lie, so if my body does not match the story I'm telling, it's time to be true with myself!

I'm in the middle of this process and honestly, it's quite uncomfortable. I don't always handle it with grace and dignity, but I will not abandon myself in this...I will keep on defining and then speaking my truth, in my thoughts, words and deeds.

I'm so grateful for the process of discovery and love how I get to explore my soul at all levels!

I'm looking forward to our new niece's arrival and thank you for the support you've offered for my brother and his wife!

Namaste.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Pure Potentiality

Our Second Sunday group looked at the Law of Pure Potentiality. There was a great discussion! My take on it is Spiritually, the potential for perfection exists....and by perfection Deepak Chopra refers to no fear, no guilt, no insecurity. Instead in Pure Potentiality we are in our essential, intrinsic state of pure consciousness. In pure consciousness we are "unbound" and there exists pure joy, pure knowledge, silence, perfect balance, invincibility, simplicity and bliss.

We have the opportunity to experience those things. It is possible! He even tells us how to do it!
1. Sit in Silence. 2. Practice Meditation. 3. Practice Non-Judgement. 4. Spend time in Nature.

Our human selves will move around and we may feel different connectedness to joy, knowledge, balance, bliss, etc. Sometimes more connected and sometimes less connected. However, if I use the four simple tools I will experience the Law of Pure Potentiality.

I'm making the commitment to have a period of silence every day. No telephone, no television, no computer, no talking, no radio. Just silence.

I meditate, however my practice is not consistent. I will allow the space to be created for meditation daily.

I will continue my practice of non-judgement. More consciously!! And I will journey into nature, though I do see amazing sunsets and follow moon movement, so I will practice expanding my nature connection.

I think I resonated with knowing that in my humanness, I am sometimes more connected with with this Law than other times. And therein lies the perfection. I know by the level of guilt and fear I am feeling at any given time, where I am in connection to this law. And now I know what I can do! I can be silent. And if the opportunity is there, I can observe nature. I can practice non-judgement in that moment. There! In the moment there are three of the four things I can immediately do!

I love this discovery, I love this journey! I'm so grateful we are walking together, each on our path of Pure Potentiality!

Have Fun! Namaste.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Personal Responsibility, Karma and...Joy?

Hey everybody, I hope you created a week that filled your spirit and that this new week, you create another one!

Recently, "karma" was brought to my attention three different times, all in the same context. Something happened to three different people that they didn't like and all three (and however many they reached on facebook and other ways) responded by threatening that "karma would get the them" or that somehow bad karma would follow these people that had done the action that caused harm. While the events that happened to these three people were really upsetting experiences and I empathize with them, I think threatening someone with the Law of Karma is an interesting yet unproductive way to respond to the situation! I have to admit, I too used to use Karma as a threat too.

Having recently studied the Law of Karma in our Second Sunday Spirit Food Group, I was reminded of some things I'd learned throughout the years about Karma as well as developed a new and stronger understanding of and respect for the Law.

Not surprisingly, we have somehow turned this misunderstood life-lesson-learning-Law into yet another threatening, big-stick brute force, abusive, fear- and guilt-based punishment! And I suppose we will continue to do so until we let go of that type of fundamental belief and value that is permeated throughout our every thought! fear, guilt, shame. These are things we learned, not what is in our heart. As such, we can easily learn and practice a new way of honoring the Law of Karma. It is called Personal Responsibility.

It is true that if I intend or say or do something that is harmful, I have put it out into the Universe and that which I put out, will come back to me.

Please think about that. Re-read it. Ahh, is it registering? YES! We are such quick and intelligent people! We got it! The very thing we hated that happened to us, happened to us for a reason, and that reason is....Karma! So while we want to blame someone else for our circumstances, and even threaten them with the punishment of Karma, we seem to loose sight of why we were even involved in the first place! Life is one learning experience after another and I can either use the opportunity to learn and raise my vibration so the lesson is not repeated, in the case of a painful experience; or repeated often and even more often, in the case of a joyful experience. Because remember, Karma works in Joy also (and that which we focus our attention on....)

I am reminded of the saying: First time, shame on you; second time, shame on me. While a slightly different version of (negative) Karma, it reminds us of the same thing. While I would re-write it to say: "First time, I'll defer responsibility to you since it is your intention/word/action; second time, I'll take a look at what I'm intending, saying or doing that is drawing this life-lesson to me." I would write it that way because I have no reason for shame and neither do you. But it is how it is said in our society and it does get the point across. (And also my point that we live in a fear- and guilt-based society and until I free myself from that belief and value...I am doomed to repeat it. Hmmm sounds like Karma to me!) It also suggests that by putting off looking at it the first time, there will be a second time...so perhaps we could just look at it the first time. That isn't always possible and once we see a pattern it becomes easier to respond. Also, I'd like to mention that everything that happens, happens for a reason. It is not "random" that what happened to me, happened to me. What happened to me may not look like what I put out there in the first place, but when it comes back to me, there is no doubt, no question, that I put something out there. It has now become my opportunity to learn and grow and become a stronger, smarter, more self-true person.

What I'm saying is that by accepting personal responsibility for my intentions, words and actions, I have the opportunity to learn more of what Life is offering. When I learn more of what Life is offering, I do not have to repeat painful experiences. When I don't repeat painful experiences, I create Joyful ones. When I create Joyful experiences, I discover more of what Life is offering.

And that, for me, is what Karma is...creating Joyful experiences so I discover more of what Life is offering.

May your week bring you many joyful experiences. I wish Joyful Karma unto You!

Namaste.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Differences and Division

Differences confirm, and make possible, your experience of Who You Are. Divisions confuse, and render impossible, that experience. Without the differences between here and there, up and down, fast and slow, hot and cold, none of these things could be experienced. Yet there is no division between here and there, up and down, fast and slow, hot and cold. These are merely different versions of the same thing. Similarly, there are no divisions between black and white, male and female, Christian and Muslim. These are merely different versions of the same thing.
Friendship With God
Neale Donald Walsch
Page 405

I really liked this "daily thought" I received! I love learning new things, trying new things and as such, am so glad there is diversity! This allows me to learn something "different". Yet sometimes I get afraid or feel threatened by that which I do not know or understand and instead of embracing it, I resist it. I now have a point of reference for those times I am resisting that which I am unfamiliar with. I find I am particularly challenged when it comes to people who believe that their way is The Only Way. I suppose it is because I believe that MY way is The Way!

Like this reading. I believe it and I think it is the truth. However, I know people who would not believe this and argue against it. Therein lies the choice to be "divided" or to allow us to be "different". And in our difference of thought lies our sameness...we each believe that our way is the truth. It helps me to know we are different versions of the same thing because then we cannot be divided. The "same" cannot be divided nor is it separate.

I think I chose the business name "All One Spirit" because it is what I believe in my heart. We are all connected, there is a common thread between all things which creates a beautiful tapestry called life. Because we are energy vibrating at variable speeds, we vibrate at "different" speeds at "different" times. So, in my vibration as I speed up and slow down, I recognize you as you vibrate up and down, but we are really different versions of the same thing.

I intend I remember that we are All One Spirit; we are simply "different versions of the same thing". Post your thoughts and lets have a conversation...after all, we are the same only different!

Namaste.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Perfection, Integrity and True Beliefs

August 9, 2010:

"It's far better to face the consequences of your true beliefs than to compromise your integrity."
-unknown

"I gently return to equilibrium, nurtured by a well spring of love. I, the soul, am washed and soothed by the quiet energies of stillness. Embracing the vastness of my inner landscape, I understand the cycles of growth and decay.
-Neale Donald Walsch

Do I really understand that everything is perfect just as it is? Do I really understand that to deny this truth is to deny that the Universe is always in support of me, or in other words, to deny God? Do I really understand that I AM perfect just as I AM? I am not broken. I don't need fixing. I understand the cycles of growth and decay, and that if I am feeling discomfort, sadness, anger, fear or anything challenging or uncomfortable, it means I am holding on to something that no longer works for me. It does not mean I need fixing or healing, it means I am perfect as I am and I can let go of that which no longer belongs to me. My vibration has changed.

I am often afraid to face the consequences of my true beliefs and instead compromise my integrity. I don't know if I fully understand why I am afraid...there are many reasons. I may not be accepted, I may have to change some things, I don't want to do the work right now...

However I understand that it will come to me in time, if I allow it. Instead of running off in many directions trying to change or fix what I think is broken, I can, instead, gently return to harmony, allowing the stillness of perfection to lead me where I need to be.

I realize that healing is an inside job. So many of us get caught up in looking outside of ourselves for a fix, for something or someone outside of ourselves to heal us. Some look to alcohol, drugs, sex, friends, government, religion, healers, stones, crystals, doctors, gurus, etc. The truth for me is: 1) if I am looking outside of myself for an answer, I am compromising my integrity, for the answer lies within and 2) people, places and things outside of me are tools to aid me to equilibrium and harmony, thus returning me to my true beliefs. They are not the be-all, end-all cure! So, when I am not looking inside for the answer I use the tools outside of me to help me find the answer, knowing they will guide me to my inner truth.

This means I use my gift of discernment to determine from who, what and where I seek my support. They do not fix or heal me. They support me. (And this means I automatically support them, for one cannot exist without the other.) This is empowerment. This is healing. This is perfection. Anything else is turning my power, my responsibility, my life over to someone else.

I can't speak for you. This is my voice, my belief. I suspect, however, for some of you this will ring true. For others, not. If this has affected you one way or another, I ask you to consider it. Think about it. Find out what fits for you, what doesn't. And then ask yourself why. You are invited to face the consequences of your true beliefs.

Namaste.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Let Go and Trust

What a great week! Since my shift, I've discovered at a deeper level, that the Universe really is in support of me, no matter what. And, I've been acting and responding to life in that manner. As such, I have been allowing myself to delve deeper into healing. And, I'm so grateful to my husband for his constant love and support.

I'm working through some PTS (post traumatic stress) which as it releases, is getting stuck in my muscles and has become quite painful. I do not take any medication now so I'm using all natural tools to work through this. I've gotten in touch once again, with my two life-lessons: Letting Go and Trust. My mantra meditation these days include "I Allow" as my chant.

I think this is great. It is not easy...pain, sleeplessness, anxiety, tension and so many things are present during this time of Healing. But that is just it...it is a time of Healing! How wonderful is that! I am discovering my strength, my trust, my creativity, my fears, my blocks...all of it. I am not putting a time limit on this...I'm not going to rush through it, try to fix it, change it, judge it, hide it or use it.

I used to believe that it was horrible to go through these learning/healing experiences because I thought it reflected that there was something fundamentally wrong with me. I don't think so anymore. I believe that I am perfect just as I am and that any learning/healing experiences I am blessed with, brings me closer to my Life Purpose.

So, I'm going through this with grace and dignity. Well, ok, not always , but I am having fun anyway!

Are you going through any changes? How are you handling them? What tools are you using?

I'd love to have a discussion with you all!

Namaste.


Monday, June 7, 2010

Law of Least Effort

I woke up this morning thinking about the Law of Least Effort as a possible topic for today's blog. I wasn't convinced, but it has been on my mind, since our Second Sunday Spirit Food Group is researching it this month and we will be talking about it this coming Sunday. As with all things, that which we give our attention to, manifests. When I read my Horoscope this morning, I knew I needed to write about this topic! I think many people really misunderstand this law. I did for many years and I continued to even as I was actively learning about it in the 1980's! This Law is aka Path of Least Resistance and often referred to as "go with the flow".

I think on the surface we think its one thing but when we look at it, it is really something different! An example is the horoscope I mentioned....it said "Don't just say yes to your friends because it's even easier than usual now to take the path of least resistance." It could also be interpreted as instead of "going with the flow, go upstream". I took this to mean that the horoscope was telling me that if I say "no" to my friends I am not taking the path of least resistance. This is a misunderstanding of the law.

The law means that though it might appear to be easier to go with the flow or appear that you are taking the path of least resistance, you may in fact, be actually doing the opposite. Again, referring to the horoscope....If I'm saying "yes" to my friends when my heart is wanting to say "no" the path of least resistance would be to say "no"! The path of least resistance means I am true to my heart's desire, not saying "yes" because it appears to be easier in the moment!

I've heard this law referred to as "deferred gratification". I might think I want something in the moment, but if it moves me away from my heart's desire, it is not the path of Least Effort, nor is it going with the flow! Going with the flow means we are headed downstream and not fighting the flow of energy within ourselves. If we are not being true to our beliefs, we are not headed downstream, though it may appear or even feel that way!

In the early 1980's I started learning about this law, but with different wording. I heard, "plan the plan and leave the outcome up to God". Or, "Follow what is in your heart and leave the rest to God, the details are not your business". The Universe responds to our heart's desires. Once we've expressed them, the how, when, where, who (details) are taken care of by the Universe (God). When I bog myself down with those details, I've lost the spirit of my heart's desire because I am now focused on "making it happen" and while it may seem that I'm taking the path of least of resistance or going with the flow, I have in fact headed upstream and removed myself from the "flow" of my heart's desire. You see, we expect ourselves and others expect it from us, to work out those details; to struggle through to the other side. And then we call it "going with the flow" or the "path of least resistance" because it is easier to cave into the pressure of working out the details, than to follow our heart's desires.

Looking into this law at first seemed obvious...go with the flow....but when I considered how deceiving this can be I've discovered the many ways we use thoughts and words to lead us away from our true path of least resistance ~ by following the law of least effort and allowing the Universe to work out the details!

I'd love to start a dialog on this! Share your view!

Monday, May 10, 2010

Are you Perfect or Unworthy?

Regarding worthiness, I believe we are 100% worthy all the time no matter what. I believe that worthiness is not attached to what we do or do not do, we do not have to earn it nor can we loose it. Worthiness just is. And it is ours to accept or not.

Sometimes we attach worthiness and other emotions to our actions so we can excuse or justify our behavior. For instance, a client wanted to do something she loved, but she did not feel worthy. The result was that she didn't follow through on a commitment, nor did she call to cancel ~ she took no action and then later, with great shame and guilt, said she was unable to cancel because she felt so unworthy. Our actions speak for themselves and do not need excuses, explanations or justifications. What is interesting is, we are really talking ourselves into believing the story!

It would be wise, if we (humans) learn to keep it simple and just allow what is to be and accept ourselves, high and low vibrations alike! In other words, you are perfect just as you are!

My vibration is lower today and I am perfect and worthy just as I am. Where are you at? Can you lean into what is, right now? What story are you telling yourself about who you are?

Monday, April 5, 2010

Fear and Security

One of my fears has to do with security. In looking at what makes me secure, I discovered a belief I think I learned from my parents. I used to believe that my security lies outside of myself. For instance, I used to think that if I worked for someone else, I would be secure. I would have a steady paycheck, insurance and retirement. I have worked for someone else my whole life and have none of those securities.

When the company my husband worked for closed its doors in December, we were faced with this very issue in a very real way. It also was an issue I had been dealing with internally for well over a year. I was in a job that no longer was for my Highest Good, or for the Highest Good of all involved. Many things brought us to that point, but that is where we were. I struggled with letting go. I thought there must be more I could do because I was desperate to hold on to the “security” of this job.

The past year I held the Knowledge that I would be shown what I needed to do. In the meantime, things got more and more uncomfortable at work. Fortunately, I had All One Spirit~my business, my husband and my friends to keep me going. I was caught in the fear of where my security would come from if I let go of that job. Even though I would focus on what I was intending, I was vibrating at the level of fear. Time to play “Let’s Make A Deal”! Still looking for that false sense of security, I was making deals with the Universe… “If you’ll provide another job...”, or “if you’ll provide steady income, I’ll move forward”. I was afraid to walk forward in my life, to step into my own security. When I have fear that gets stuck in my body, it goes somewhere, and not surprisingly, the arthritic spurs in my toe got so bad that I could not walk without pain.

I envisioned what the worst case scenario was. The worst case for me, was I snuff out my light; give up my hope, continue to live someone else’s life. That is exactly where I was headed. The harder I tried to avoid it, the stronger the resistance was. What we resist persists. Once I could come to terms with that, I was able to move forward. I got the toe fixed and left the job ~ walking forward and stepping into my life! As I said, I knew the Universe is always in support of me and I would be shown what I needed to do. I now have a full-time job in my passion ~ All One Spirit! And, by my moving forward, the security that job offers became available to someone who needs it!


Where does your security lie? Are you placing your security in someone or something outside of yourself? What are your beliefs about this?